Since a mirage happens in the dawn of my college life, I promised myself not to let my heart get that full control of my tears and only cry for important things.

Tonight I walked down on the pavement in front of the campus gate and stopped because I have to search for a missing noun, but mainly because I have to conceal my falling tears. They run down like a snowball falling from the top of the hill, fast and heavy.

I have no idea what causes the heavy heart tonight, I put on my Joker's mask and lie to a friend about the reason I cry so suddenly, I am actually ashamed. Someone on highschool once said that my "crying suddenly" habit is freaky (they actually use the term "freak) and I agree, I just can't controll them sometimes. I also can't identify what went wrong, who makes me feel like shit, what words made me uneasy, and so on, but I still could not think of anything. So when I stopped today, I realize maybe it was for nothing.

Maybe I cry for nothing like those smiles and glances we exchange everytime we met which doesn't really mean anything.

maybe I cry for nothing like my favourite notebook that was missing for no reason.

maybe I cry for nothing like how my useless tweets does not mean anything.

You don't always have the reason for everything, sometimes it is okay to cry for nothing.