Cosmogyral. I admit I never really explain to anyone why I choose that term over many of my social media presence. Sadly the reason was because I have no reason, I just happen to like the sound of it. Well, I was young back then and that was the predicament of my thinking process.
Cosmogyral is a term that means whirling around the universe. I was kind of into constellations-ish words back then so I fell in love with that word I found on a blog, which main activity was to post rare but meaningful words that will probably inspire tons of hipsters and poetic personas. Yes, I was that cliché back then ( I have said it a thousand time ). Years passed and I finally came into the real meaning of the word and why I am so very attached to it.
It was my life, I was in that kind of condition. I am whirling around the universe, I have no idea which galaxy I belong to so I am just pretending the whole universe is my home. And whirl around it. I never land on anywhere, I don't know where I am going. I float around all over the sky.
Reflecting back on reality, I pretty much whirl around everything. I am all over the place, I took works that spark my interests just for the hang of it. And sometimes I know I am overwhelmed by the tasks. I actually select works that will benefit different aspects for me and my soft skill in the making but the term procrastinating and mismanaging put me in a tight spot. I am all over the place, and my biggest fear is that I may not contribute anything worthwhile to it.
People will expect you to do a decent job just because they think you are capable. There are some people who have high expectation when you joined their team and it will be hard to keep it up if you drown yourself in the thought that you can't do that much. If I ever learn anything from my first year of college, is you will always find time to work on it despite the crazy chaotic schedule lined up for a day. If you reflect back, there are always a purpose in which why you are whirling towards a certain constellation on the universe, stars drift around galaxies and the universe expands in a not so ordinary way in order to keep the chaos in order. And you will also have to find that order under all the chaos, whirling around or walking straight.
I am currently whirling around, just far enough to find my spot. But even if it may take a while, I will find my pattern. I will find another meaning to Cosmogyral, and drift the heck out of it.
