I failed miserably at reading the signs,

that my eyes turns grey,
my knees are shaking,
my lungs are wet,
my temple whim,

my throat is yellow,
my wrists are blue,
my lips are white,
and the water runs orange

If I were to die, I would not have recognized anything.
If I were to fly, I would not have prepared my wings.

I was blinded by the thought of you
that I never came to see anybody else
including myself.

thank you to another 5 stripes of pills,
I finally learn how to read myself.


sarahannida
18 November 2016
Cawang,
Tapi hati di Depok, Bekasi, dan engkau.