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And I watched you change. I dont know why. You're turning into someone I dont even know, you're not the you I met 3 years ago, the first year in junior high, you choose the seat behind me, with our friends we laugh, we talk, we became friends. Hey, I havent felt anything back then, all I know was you are a good friend. And I'm happy about that.

The second year, unexpectedly we share the same class again. We were so close, we talk about things, you thought me how to read guitar tabs, I share you some songs and you study the chords. Our class was the bomb, our friendship was too.You start to change physically and mentally, you grow, and I like that change of yours because you turn into someone better. And I like you. The end of that year, we sat next to each other, I said thankyou for being an obnoxious-irresponsible class captain, and you smiled and said okay. I knew you were a geat friend.

Third year, we didnt share the same class. We are still friends. And you were very lovely, you know? You treat your girlfriend verryyy right, well I thought that so untill you start dumping her like hell. What happened to the 'romantic-nice-heartful' you? And there you go...

I think at that momment you already knew how loveable you are.

This is the fourth year I have known you. You sadly didnt get the high school you were expecting and you get accepted in the same school as I do. We were like usual, friends, old friends. Untill then

We choose the same extraculicular, entered the same class organization. At first, it was okay, I remind you of meetings and blaahss, but I realized you never respect me. You're so nice to senior girls, you're so friendly to your new friends. But not to me. I may have annoy you I guess, I'm not that pretty so you get tired of me. You dont even bother to say thank you or those little things. Your words are rude. You dont listen to me. Almost all the time you disagreed.  I'm not good enough for you.



It wasnt just me. My friends felt that too. You change. You change. Why. Why it must be you. Why does it influence me so much. Why do I care. Why do you make me insecure.

Decided to leave it all behind, I act as usual, like nothing happened, like I dont care, like I'm not hurt, like I dont want you, like it wasnt a big deal..

But just so you know, If one day you realize that I havent talked to you in a while, it's not that I dont care. It's because you pushed me away and left me there.

But you're always going to be my friend. I'm going to be there for you if you need me. I dont need you to care or to be nice to me, but if you have anything to share, I'm always here. Glad to know you dude. Have a nice life.

Bye.

*And if you read this, you should have known...

Saay hello to your newest high schooler!!

Buku panduan MOPDB. Lucu yaaa:3

Nametag super gampang hoho

Seragaam. (ps: foto ini dari instagram tmn gue : @rusidk)

Oke, jadi gue baru aja resmi jadi Peserta Didik Baru SMAN 81 Jakarta. Hoaah njir rasanya baru kemaren masuk sd (?) sekarang udah sma aja gue. Wakaka. Yang gue senengin dari MOPDB (Masa Orientasi Peserta Didik Baru) di 81 tuh, ga neko neko, ga ribet tapi ga terlalu simpel juga. Jadi masih ada yg bisa dikerjain gitu buat Mos, tapi ga seribet temen temen gue yang gue denger curhatannya dari twitter...

Dan gue excited banget:)))

That gleeful moment ketika lo udah keterima SMA. Dan sekolah itu sekolah yang lo mau dari duluu trus temen temen lo juga keterima disaana. Even your crush is there too! :P  lo udah siap start over. Lo udah siap jadi pribadi baru.

Yesterday, 2nd June 2012 is the big day.

I'm thankful for Allah, Evelotre lulus 100 perseeenn!!

What I'm even more thankfull of is my score. I never expected this score, I always thought that maybe I can only get 38,00 because the test is pretty hard. It turns out better than what I've been expecting

Truth is, wether you get a good score or bad score. It doesnt define who you are, It doesnt mean youre dumb or whatever. Because your intelligence does not measured by a 4 day test only. Every body is smart and clever on their own way. Ever heard about multiple intelligence?:)

Some people just dont understand that sometimes we need a time on our own. To be drowned by our own thoughts, wether its right or wrong. To fill our brain with endless possibilities that comes from our own thoughts.
To cry. To laugh. To think. On your own.

Because if we take the time to realize, we are our only friend. We take care of ourself, we are being told to never trust someone 100%, and we watched with our own eyes that people who are suppose to watch each other's back turns out to be betraying one another. Why? Because we never know what they feel inside. 


We never really know what our bestfriend think when we told them our problems, she might laugh inside, she might be glad that you have it, but why do we refuse to believe this and decided to believe that they actually care?

Because we wanted to be cared about.

And we wanted to care about someone.

This whole thing about having no one as your friend in real life, happens to everyone. Which makes you are not alone. Get it? You are not alone because you are alone. You dont really get it, do you?

The fact that everyone feels the same make them see the person in front of them differently. They know what this person is going through, they know how it feels like, they've walked in this person's shoes.

They said dont tell someone to stop crying if you dont know how it feels like, right?


Well at least, that's what we supposed to feel. Unfortunately some people dont get it.

So because we are all alone at heart, we know when someone need a hug, or a smile. A friend. That's why we started making friends.

When you're with them, nothing ever goes wrong, eh? You promised to yourself to never let them down, to always make them smile, to never let anyone hurt them, to help them with all you can when they're in trouble. Even though deep down, you know you cant do everything on your promises.

But this people you call friends will not always be there for you, they may not always make you smile when you're down, they're not always on your side, they sometimes tell you you're wrong, but you refuse to believe them even though you're not right. They may have different opinions, you guys disagree on many things, their decisions may let you down. They can break you, but they can also make you.

How to keep them on your side? By letting them go when they need to. People have problems, people have days when they feel like the couldnt make it any longer, sometimes a hug is not enough. Some times it takes more than just a hug.

It takes time.

They need time.

You need time.

On your own. To figure things out. To decide wether to be immature or to start growing up. To take a look back, and to think. To think what you should do to face the world, the situation, the people you love.

To just find out who you are.

Let them have their own time. To cool off. Let them go. But dont make them run too far. When they're ready, come to them. Let them know that you are there for them. That they are safe with you. That they can trust you. Maybe we should stop saying I love you and start saying I care about you.

Because I love you is too mainstream, it gets too exposed, lots of people doesnt really mean it while saying it. Some people might be manipulating us when they said it to us. But we dont have any choice, we believe them.

Let them know that they care about you. Let them know that they are needed. Because, at the end of the day, that's what we really need right? To be needed. So say it from the bottom of your heart. Sincere. Unforced.

But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe this post was just a piece of bullshits. Maybe this world is too cold to agree with me,

But maybe, just maybe, you understand.

30.4.12

Hellooo. Kalian udah pernah liat post Sarah yang tentang perpisahan kelas 7.4? Ga lama setelah post itu, sekarang muncul post ini, Sarah mau nyeritain tentang another goodbye, kali ini sama kelas Sarah, 8.3.

Waktu itu emang hal yang jahat, dia berjalan aja terus tanpa peduli kalo kita udah teriak teriak minta dia untuk melambat sedikit, atau meminta dia untuk berhenti, atau minta dia untuk membawa kita ke belakang. Waktu tetep aja berjalan dengan cepat tanpa memandang siapapun.

Tanggal 11 Juli 2010 yang lalu Sarah masih celingak celinguk nyari kelas sarah dimana, waktu Sarah tau sarah ga sekelas sama temen temen deket di 7.4, sempet kecewa, tapi bentar aja, pas udah ngeliat daftar anak - anak 83 yang banyak Sarah kenal juga, optimis aja kelas ini bakal nyenengin.

Dan ternyata bener, 1 tahun itu nggak kerasa, apalagi kalo bareng temen temen yang superseru, superlawak dan pelajaran yang supermemusingkan. Tapi yang paling penting, dikelas 8.3 sarah belajar banyak, ga cuma pelajaran sekolah, tapi pelajaran sehari - hari. Sarah ngalamin masalah sama temen, masalah sama guru, masalah sama diri sendiri

Sarah ngalamin rasanya seneng banget, feeling like youre in the top and no one's gonna bring you down di 8.3, trus tiba tiba, I feel so down like no one is going to pick me up. Tapi hidup itu fleksibel, bisa berubah rubah bentuknya. Juga kata kata "hidup itu kayak roda" iya itu bener banget. Makanya segala yang terlalu itu ga baik, hari ini terlalu senang eh besoknya terlalu sedih. kita gapernah tau apa yang bakal kita hadapin besok.

Tapi itu semua bagian dari pembelajaran. Everything happens for a reason. Itu kita harus percaya, semua kesalahan semua masalah terjadi, pasti karena Allah mau ngasih sesuatu buat kita supaya di masa depan kita bisa jadi lebih baik. Atau mungkin masalah yang ada itu supaya di masa depan kalian dapet yang lebih baik. Bahkan masalah kadang dateng karena Allah mau ngingetin kita, untuk berhenti melakukan kesalahan yang sama.

Belajar di 8.3 udah bikin Sarahberubah banyak.

Nah, enough with the sad and wise-wannabe part, lets get into the fun part of this story.

20 Juni 2011, Semua anak Ozone33 dan ozone34 (kelas 8 dan 7) ikut Tour ke Lembang, katanya pak Gatong sih ini buat refreshing, abis belajar satu tahun difrosir supaya naik kelas dan abis ngerjain soal soal ukk yang lumayan bikin otak berasap, supaya kita seneng seneng lah istilahnya.

Jadi kita berangkat ke Lembang, untungnya semua anak 83 yang ikut masuk bis yang sama, bis 8, gabung sama beberapa anak 82. Dan, kalian harus tau bis 8 itu superusuuuh. Dan seru banget.
Ada tv nya trus mas mas bis nya nyetel lagu lagu random gitu, ada Justin Bieber. And ofc, para cewek cewek langsung sing a-long ke lagunya. Trus tiba tiba ada SM#SH yang bibir mu doweeer lalala itu. Trus ada Pi el ey way bi o way bi o way. (In case you cant spell it, it says PLAYBOY:p)
Dan saat lagu 7Icon itu berkumandang, bis langsung heboh karena anak - anak pada ikutan nyanyi+ joget joget. Hahaha.

Oke di foto ini emang ga keliatan rusuh sih yaa, tapi emang kalo rusuh kan susah difotonya hahaaha

Karena memang pada bakat narsis, di bis pada foto - foto semuaa. trus Afal, Teguh, Daki dkk main gitarnya, dan berharap pada ikut nyanyi, tapi sayang, selama Justin Bieber masih berkumandang, para cewek akan tetap mantengin tv dan dengerin lagunya. trus ada yang tidur juga, haha okay ini ada foto foto temen temen Sarah.












Teguh sama shahnaz, gracia, vini, syarifa
Arya pede sama chitato
Afal + kacamata+gitar
Zalfa lagi tidur sama boneka

















Sampe deeh di Hotel Grand Lembang. Emang asri banget ya, dingin lagi. Sarah, Pute, Nasya langsung lari nyari toilet, dan ternyata 3 toilet yang kita masukin penuh semua, trus akhirnya karena udah ga tahan banget kita ikutin Mama nya Salma(87) ke dalem hotel dan tadaaa, nemu deh toilet yang sepi.

Hihihi, akhirnya kita mengikuti serangkaian acara disana. ada performance performance. and guess what? ada LATIZONE BAND, band lapan tiga, mereka perform lagu Fall for you, lagunya randa (lupa namanya), sama welcome to my life

Ini diaaa----------->
Vokalis: Randa
Bassis : Arya Pede
Gitar : Iqbal
Piano: Teguh
Drum : Irfan
(p.s abis nyanyi welcome to my life, ada yang minta encore, dan jadi nyanyi papa rock and roll, iqbal diganti Afal, pede juga jadi megang gitar)




It was a whole lott of funn. Ada dancer girls yang keren narinya. Trus Dancer 87 yang asik banget dance nya, temen Sarah ampe merinding nontonnya (dikira nonton film horor sar-_-) trus ada Zilva, yang nari balet, ada band band kelas, pokoknya seruuu.

Ini foto nya. Sarah rena rusi pute nasya tyaas, foto bareng lagi nonton anak cowok 83 tanding futsal











Pas waktunya Sholat, Sarah sama rena yang lagi halangan ketemu temen kita, Ivan dari 88, dan begitu liat bunga make-a-wish dan bunga kuning yang lucu, kita langsung foto foto (bunga nya yang difoto bukan kitanya)










abis itu kita foto session sambil ngumpul sekelas.




Okayy, maaf yaa ini berantakan banget post dan foto foto nya.
Hahah, abis dari hotel kita ke kebun stroberi. Disana dingin, hahahaha. dan view nya bagus banget, so, yeah, pictureeeeeeeees:





On the way home. Inilah rusuh yang sesungguhnya. Kita nyanyi nyanyi, ketawa tawa, foto foto, sampe suara serak. abis. tenaganya juga udah pada gaada semua. Lemes.
Sampe jakarta lagi jam 9 malam. But then, kita seneng banget hari itu, bisa main bareng temen temen seharian.

Walaupun masih ketemu lagi, rasanya emang gabisa ninggalin 8.3. Udah kebanyakan kenangan, rasanya kelas 9 maunya sekelas lagi. Tapi yaa, there's some things you just cant control. Kemaren pas bagi rapot, seneng banget ternyata nilai sekelas emang tinggi tinggi, dan ga ada yang ga naik kelas, Alhamdulillah. Sarah doain semoga semua temen temen 83 dapet yang terbaik dari Allah, kelas 9 nya lancar, lulus dengan nilai yang memuaskan, masuk SMA bagus, universitas yang diinginkan, dapet kerja yang gaji nya oke, daan masa depan yang cerah. Yess, we all got a future full of blue skies!

Thankyou semua : Rena, Afal, Teguh, Ino, Puteri, Rusi, Pede, Nasya, Tyas, Sahara, Ratri, Fahmi, Irfan, Randa, Ratri, Clara, Naila Gasanova, Nayla Rabila, Anin, Dea, Ira, Ara, Inayah, Daki, Davino, Iqbal, Dimas, Ariq, Klaudius, Azka, Shafira, Hafiz, Izzi, Angga, Bimo, Dana Melati, Fia, Halimah, Arya Rahmat dan pastinya, Pak Anang. Goodbye is never enough :D



Long live the walls we crashed through, I had the time of my life with you... Long long live, all the magics we made. And bring on all the pretenders, one day we will be remembered.


Terimakasih lagi ya, kalian udah nambahin cerita seru lain untuk
Sarah ceritakan. Long Live 8.3 :D
The weirdest member of delapantiga,
Sarah Annida H.H :)

*please dont laugh. Sarah tau ini post emang enggak banget dan bikin geli bahasanya... haha tapi yaa hehehe maaf deh kalo ada kesalahan kata :D*

Siapa bilang jadi remaja itu gampang ? Apalagi pra remaja. Umur 13-14 itu umur - umur rawan. Masa - masa paling sulit sekaligus menyenangkan.

Banyak orang - orang tua bilang kalo remaja itu nakal. Aduh, kayak ga pernah jadi anak ABG aja deh. Kenakalan anak - anak remaja itu biasa. Kita kan masih dalam tahap pembelajaran + pertumbuhan untuk jadi dewasa, wajar kalau masih banyak salah. Tapi emang kadang nakal kita kebangetan, kalau gitu sebaiknya di  bilangin baik - baik, di tegasin. Jangan malah di cap 'anak nakal' karena dengan gitu, dia akan selamanya jadi anak nakal, karena sudah di cap begitu. Terus, jangan di kasih hukuman kayak disuruh guling guling di becekan depan jalan umum, atau disuruh mandi lumpur, apa coba? itu kan kebangetan. Aku ga nyangka bener bener ada orang - orang tua--yang seharusnya lebih bijaksana-- main hakim sendiri sama anak anak kecil seumur kita (itu beneran loh, ada di tv) Ya ampun, plis deh. Berperilaku dan berbicara kasar dan kotor ke anak kecil ataupun remaja cuma membentuk mereka sebagai pribadi yang kasar juga. karakter kan dibentuk saat muda, apa pun yang kita lihat, kita dengar, kita pelajari dari lingkungan sekitar akan membekas di otak kita dan lama - lama itu akan membentuk karakter kita. Kalo yang kita pelajari itu bagus - bagus, Insya Allah kita akan memiliki karakter yang bagus juga. Kalo yang kita pelajari itu kata - kata kotor, pribadi yang cuek, ga sopan dan ga disiplin, ya gitu karakter kita.

Masa remaja itu bener - bener puncak nya pembentukan karakter, jadi orang - orang tua disekitar kita sangatlah berperan.

Dan aduh, sekali lagi, jadi remaja itu nggak gampang. Harus berkelut dengan masalah masalah seperti ; buku pelajaran - pelajaran memusingkan, jerawat besar di hidung yang bikin malu banget-apa lagi kalo diliat gebetan-, berantem sama sahabat sendiri, gagal pedekate, ketek bau, hidung berminyak, dimusuhin suatu geng disekolah, Pra Menstruation Syndrome (bagi cewek), krisis identitas, dan uhh banyak bangeeet.

Jadi kalo ada anak pra remaja yang nakal dan berbuat aneh - aneh, tenang aja, mungkin itu karena dia bingung caranya ngilangin jerawat atau karena orang yang dia suka ternyata suka orang lain.

:P
-Cheers-
SARAHANNIDA

Wuaa, kemaren baru aja perpisahan kelas. kelasku tersayang tujuhempat(huhuhuhu. jadi sedih) Perpisahannya ekstrim sih, outbond di outbond holic - Ancol. sumpah seru + serem banget. nih badanku sakit semuaaa, pegel pegel sana sini. ya ampuuun, buka baju, ngangkat tas, dan segala macem tuh susah. anehnya, online atau ngetik tuh ga pegel. lucu ya, eh? iya deng ga lucu biasa aja.
Aku bangun jam setengah 5, mandi, solat subuh, trus beres beres. dan tugas yang paling susah : bangunin Abi....
hahahaha kidding!
Setelah beres beres segala macem, kita berangkat, tapi sebelumnya Abi minjem semacam speaker yang dihubungin ke laptop gitu, ke pak RT, setelah itu berangkaaaaaat.
Udah nyampe aku kaget. Si Fadhil akhirnya bisa dateng. agak gimana juga sih, soalnya niatku pengen buat semacam surprise gitu, anak - anak kumpul trus diah ma fadhil tiba tiba dateng, biar dramatis dramatis gitu.... sayang banget si fadhilnya udah dateng duluan dan diah ga ikut. haha
Sampe sana kita outbond, setelah di training dan segala macem, yang cewek ke jalur biru, yang cowok ke jalur hijau. agak gak adil sih, soalnya jalur hijau lebih gampang, kan lebih enak kalo semuanya ke jalur hijau bareng2 terus baru ke jalur biru, tapi yaudahlah, apa yang sudah terjadi, terjadi sajalah. haha apabanget.
Jalur biru. Awal awalnya masih tegang. apalagi waktu ada yang jatoh. serem. akhirnya aku nomor 4 di belakangku Putri. nih ada foto foto nya










Yang paling menegangkan ya jalur merah. yang cowok naik pertama lewat climbing walls, trus beberapa yang lain + yang cewek, naik semacam tangga. (oh iya, pengait dan segala macem safety nya kita yang masang sendiri loh) sebenernya aku berani karena kukira abis flying fox, udah selesai tantangannya, ternyata belom -__- hahah okelah, this is worth trying.
dan ternyata....
Aw. capek dan serem banget, apa lagi dibelakangku baim dan cowok cowok lainnya hih langsung diteriakin " Woy yang didepan siapa sih lama bangeet" ahelah. jawab aja "maklum dong gue kan cewek" susah banget tuh soalnya yang kayu zig zag.

aku berpikir untuk berhenti disitu dan ga mau lagi. tapi abis itu aku liat salma yang udah jauh, "i must do this, if she can, i can. come on! i can do this!!" dan tadaaaa. selesaii

gausah di omongin lagi deh seberapa pegelnya setelah semua itu. 5 flying fox, puluhan rintangan. uwah. bisa bayangin kan?

Tapi yang neyenengin ya pas kumpul kumpul tuker kado dan ngobrol ngobrol di pantai. unforgettable deh.

Setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan. Gak rela rasanya ninggalin tujuh empat. Tujuh Empat itu the funniest, kocakest,kompakest,coolest class ever deh (menurutku ya). Tujuh empat itu selalu penuh tawa makanya namanya 'Happy Seven Four' karena emang Happy happy terus. walaupun di hukum sekalipun tetep aja ketawa tawa bareng.

kocakest = karena emang kocak kocak. ada aja yang ngocol dan bikin kelas rusuh.

Kompakest = kompak banget. dalam hal baik dan buruk. haha. kalo di hukum, pasti bareng - bareng, kalo nyontek biasanya bareng bareng. pokokya kompak banget. kalo lagi lomba juga, kalo lagi di kelas seru - seruan, kompak banget bikin kelas rusuh.

coolest: aku ga bisa nge jabarinnya. haha

Bagian favoritku pas perpisahan tuh, waktu kita semua ngobrol - ngobrol di pinggir pantai, seru banget. yang cowok - cowoknya ngocol, bikin ga bisa berenti ketawa. Si Afal yang gila ga ada pacarnya terus mesra banget sama Fadhil, Si Icak yang maho sama Dimas, Bagas, Rizki dll, Si Teguh ma Satrio yang main lempar - lemparan batu. dan banyak lagi. bener bener ngerasa kalo tujuh empat yang lama udah balik lagi. seru banget.

Walaupun orang - orang bilang 7.4 cupu lah, gak eksis lah, ga seru lah. Tujuh Empat tetep asik. tujuh empat udah ninggalin kenangan yang bener - bener 'waw' buat ku. gak akan dilupakan. Di tujuh empat aku belajar setia kawan, kepedulian, empati, simpati, cinta, dan segala macam tentang kehidupan. Aku ngalamin yang namanya 'crush' sama seseorang, jatoh, krisis identitas, diinggalin sama temen temen ( fake friends), patah hati, dan segala macem. hal hal itu bukannya bikin aku tambah down tapi malah bikin aku tambah kuat.

Makasih ya temen temen semua; Putri, Baim, Salma, Afal, Dinda, Satrio, Teguh, Fadhil, Dimas, Ditha, Amel, Kemal, Nayla, Galih, Menik, Lilo, Diah, Anin, Titha, Dian, Deyna, Iqbal, Icak, Diah, Sortiana, Tyas, Innocentia, Najwa, Syifa, Dea, Ara, Ilham, Dana, Riga, Rizki, Resa, Bagas. dan guruku tersayang Bu Nasyrah.

Thankyou for one year full of laughter, jokes,friendship, love and music.

I'll MISS YOU. AKU BAKAL KANGEN BERAT SAMA KALIAAAAN

Tujuh Empat.
Mengukir Tawa Dalam Abadi.
Disana ada tawa. Disana ada kami.

~Sarah Annida~